"I became the butterfly. I got out of the cocoon, and I flew."
- Lynn Redgrave
I really think Friday was a pivotal moment for me. I realize there are still rough days ahead, but I feel like I've reached the summit, and things will finally get easier from here.
As I mentioned in the last post on my old blog, I'm reinventing myself. Today I'm motivated, energetic, and yes, happy. I even have things I'm looking forward to (like going on that cruise).
I didn't talk to my wife at all over the weekend, but I did have a brief phone conversation with her today. It ended when she said "I don't want to talk to you right now, I'm getting so angry." to which I replied "That's good. You deserve to be the one who's angry and hurt for a while." and hung up on her. I'm finished being the mouse. I've finally escaped the evil cat's clutches, and I won't go back under the paw. At some point, I need to love myself.
I took some time today to visit my neighborhood tattoo artist. Among the dumber things I've done in my life was getting her name tattooed on my arm. Fortunately, the artist came up with a very cool design to cover it up. In a sense, I'm erasing her -- both literally, and symbolically. I'm really excited to get this work done. I think it will bring a sense of closure, and it's part of the new me.
Thank you for continuing to read. I'm glad you made the trip to the new blog. You keep reading, I'll keep writing, and together we'll get through this.
1 comment:
As I've said before...I'm glad you're back. There seems to be a lot of people who care about you!!
Anyway, I think I may have said this before; it's unfortunate, but I think you need to get angry with her before you can get over her. As long as the anger doesn't take over, I think it's healthy.
Good for you about the cruise. You deserve to go and have a GREAT time. It sounds wonderful. I hope we will get a cruise report when you back :-)
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